The Bell Jar: Chapter 19-20

One thing Esther does during the book is she tries to find a man to sleep with. The whole book she finds her virginity as more of a burden. As it turned out, when she actually lost her virginity it wasn't what she thought it would be. She decided it would be with Irwin just because he was willing. She didn't have any real special feelings towards him. After they had sex, Esther thought it was really anticlimactic. She didn't feel any different and it turned out to just be kind of a nuisance for her. This is a perfect example of the bell jar simply hanging above her and not going away.