The Bell Jar: Chapter 13-14

Esther never really knows where she fits in. Even in the first couple of chapters Esther couldn't find who she wanted to be. This, along with her experiences factor in and make her sadder and sadder as time goes on. Esther starts to become suicidal. She tries many times to kill herself. She thinks about shooting herself but then thinks about it and decides that that is a 'Man's death.' Then she tries to hang herself and fails. After this she decides to go into a crawl space under her house and takes fifty pills. Later she wakes up in a hospital with a blindfold on. Esther really doesn't know what to do with herself and thinks death is the only relief she can find.