The Bell Jar: Chapter 1-4

When Esther is in New York, she is constantly trying to find herself. At first she wants to be like Doreen and she ends up going out and drinking a lot. Then she starts to feel depressed about what she's become and decides to try and change herself. So far her time in New York has been kind of sad and it's unclear whether she likes it or not. At the moment she doesn't like herself because she can't find the 'right personality.' Although, I could see her finding her own system and getting better.